Witn aspirations expanding, I'm undoubtedly fighting my way through, towards the so-called destination.

Things are not well-founded to simply consider to be getting better or worse, so it is always hard to catch the rapid changing, for instance, from the cloudland to the earth.
 
In other words, I'm not yet able to judge whether it will all the way stay good or not.
To make it, it's still beyond me.
And, that's what I'm longing for.

As an ordinary Senior 3 student struggling in a certainly competitive situation, I'm doing what I'm supposed to, definitely.

September, Octorber, Novemer, December.

What should be done will then eventually get to be done.
So there's exactly nothing to worry about, but how to choose and stick to.

I'm looking for myself, in order to listen.

Recently, there are more that drive me to a certain saying:

We have to fight, there's no alternative.

How time flies. It is July now.
And the last journal was written in March, hell, it has been four months.

We are on holiday. I am on holiday.
Holiday has been a hazy concept to us, which only to last 20 days this Summer.
Summer will always remind me of the period spent in Nottingham,2004.
Okay, leave it alone, it's never going to be back.

Lot of affairs, which I am not going to list.

I'm getting ready for my 18.
Well. It's hard to promise that everything will pay off. I'm just striving to.

The very first part of my holiday will be spent at home, peacefully.
Coz' it's raining outside and it's fairly hot.
 
& my dearest is far away in Wuhan and I promised him to wait for his return.

Yogurt, Kiwifruit, milk and tea.
read some books and keep marking down the trace.

Well. Everything's fine.
I'm leaving for doing some routine work.

"It worths.
 Coz she will be the only girl I will love."

It left marks in me.
Something's really going on.

Despite so much to concern, can I just ignore all those Can'ts and let myself go on the way leading to your side.
Oh, can I, can't I.

Nowhere to escape
and nowhere to exactly head for.
It's positively as lovely as an untrue dream every time I find myself stick to your lines.
How I wish the call remained the miracle of lasting for ever.
I've never doubted anything untrue's happening until the moment I had to say goodbye.
I've never doubted, dear.

Every minute is counting to me now
due to your existence as an essential part of mine..

It just came up to me all of a sudden
striking out as an untrue dream to be encompassed by love and bliss
that made me feel disencouraged & unsafe..

I'm sorry about that.

You can't change what you see in the mirror.
It's easier to be somebody you want to be.

But can you righteously say
that ten years from now you'll still be that idealistic person?

We'll never be able to manage to.

Time trickles.

The palm of my hand was jet cold.
The rain's yelling.
Following the stream of pedestrian, I held my umbrella to attempt to hide my sight line.
Couples were around.
It was obvious that I was trying to avoid being reminded of the past with one standing by my side taking care of me.

How I wish I can magically hide away some time.
Or, make my way to him, longing for a little protection , temporarily.
 
Well, it never stayed long as I was just absent minded for a little while.

About what I have undergone and I shall.
It mixs up somehow.

 No hard feelings.
Just go over and go through it.

If only we can hold it on ever and ever.
If only I can hear your voice till I lose conciousness.
If only the moment can last.

Who else can it be,
to take me far away.

It's all about you now.

Never doubt.

Everythin's fine.
Pretty fine, dear.

No matter how, the certain thing I will do is to stand by your side.
And admit that I do.

You know what.
Never have I told you how I am getting addicted to you, have I?

CHANL smelling encompassing me.

You know what.
They cannot take that away.

The soul remember when.

TacoBell, a Mexican restaurant, MIX.
Atmosphere of warmth and unique scents.
With all the staff in special uniforms.
Orange lights above me, leaving my shadow nowhere.
Dad was seated at the other end of the table, looking at me quietly.
It seemed that he wanted to make sure whether everything's fine with her dear daughter.


Well, he was satified with me.
Everything's pretty fine with me.


The entrance of the restaurant.
I could always see some pretty and nice persons appeared, like foreigners.


My dear Daddy.
We are alike, of course.


The menu. Well, it annoyed me a little bit coz there're so many choices..
I hate my only little stomach.

A pretty nice lunch dining in TacoBell.
VIP admitted.

Never, never abandoned yourself to grief.
You'll be an absolute fool to do so.
Wound is unavoidable, in a way we cannot quite define.

Yet we can achieve little until we are able to value ourselves enough to believe that we also deserve some success & happiness.

Try to remember that anyone that tries
to take away your confidence is either jealous of you in some way,
or lacks confidance and self-esteem of their own.

Revel in your unique gifts and abilities
and don't let anyone undo with one cruel word or action
what you have spent years building.

Much to concern.
Yep,they all have been connected with my existence.

I'm his.
I'm hers.
I'm theirs.
I DO belong,I should say.
They're Mine.

Kid as 17, an actual child Terri is.

Keen on all the beauty & honesty, Philosophy recently.
Disgusted with something really repulsive and hideous.
Affected manners are nasty.

Love means deep affection or fondness.
No one is loveless.
So don't worry, you all dear, you're always loved, somehow.

Nothing ever stays exactly the same.
Though we always get some flashbacks about the past.

Family means a safe haven from the vagaries and vicissitudes of the world to me.
I should lie my deepest love in it.

My dream is fairly nice,
which with the one who loves me the most, blue sky and slightly snuggle.
Pardon child's imaginative thought.

Tend to treat others with sincerity and courtesy.
No one can love you before you love yourself.

Read my pieces.
Read my broken consciousness.